This memorial website was created in the memory of our loved one Jessie Wilson who was born in Australia on 22 November 2004 and passed away on 22 November 2004 . We will remember her forever.

Life after my second child was perfect, we were so happy.
Our family was now complete.
We made the decision that we were very happy with our two healthy boys and didn’t want anymore children or at least nor for five or ten years, we needed time for us as a couple.

Unfortunatly I developed postnatal depression and OCD after our second child and needed alot of help, from medications and various specialists. Thanks to so many people but mostly to my boys I am still here today.
It was time to be able to enjoy my family and find a few moments to myself, This is why I chose to have the new IUD Mirena fitted. It lasts for five years and you don’t have to remember to take that pill each morning!
I went to my gynecologist/ obstetrician, he agreed that this would be perfect for my situation.

I booked in for the procedure on October 14th, This involved a short day stay in hospital and a general anesthetic.  The day arrived and I was excited to be getting this new IUD that I would be able to simply forget about for five years. How wrong could I have been?
I was glad to wake up and find my boys beside my hospital bed, its very different going into hospital when your children are at home.When I woke I had lots of cramping in my pelvis but the nurses assured me this was normal and I was given a prescription for strong pain relief and told to expect so bleeding.
Well the bleeding never appeared although I did have a lot of serve cramping. So much so that when leaving the hospital was in so much pain that i couldnt walk to the car! I was sitting in the curb while my partner got the car to collect me from the hospital entrance, I remeber a few people stopping to ask if I was ok so i ust have looked bad.
That night i took the pain medications and tried to sleep.When two weeks later nothing had changed and I was only getting worse, now vomiting and diarrhea, I knew this couldn’t be right I must have been having a bad reaction to it I thought.
The cramping was worsening and I was on strong painkillers continually.
I went to my GP he thought it may have just been gastroenteritis so gave me some maxolon tablets to try and ease the nausea.
Nothing helped and I felt terrible! I was now in so much pain i was feeling dizzy and delirious, I went back to the GP and he said the only way to know if it was infact the Mirena was to pull it out. What a blow, all that for this!
Little did I know that was only the start of my problems!
When my GP tried to find the sting from the Mirena to pull it out he looked at me in shock all he said was "There is no string, we need to send you to a specialist immediately.”
I felt myself burning up with fear. He arranged for me to go to the hospital as it was a Saturday and this couldn’t wait till the Monday.
We arrived at the hospital, children in tow only to be told by the Doctors that they also couldn’t see any sign of the string to the Mirena.
They sent us to a specialist clinic just two streets away and were told that the Doctor there should be able to remove it for me, as he has been fitting them in New Zealand for along time and has a lot of experience with IUD’s.
We trekked down the road and into the specialist clinic where we were already known as the hospital had called ahead for us. We went through the whole story again and luckily there was a wonderful receptionist who looked after the boys.
When the doctor couldn’t locate any string, he suggested we use vaginal ultrasound to have a better look. I agreed and just wanted it out!
He was looking at the ultrasound screen for what felt like an eternity, then he look at me and asked if I knew I was pregnant when they put the Mirena in?
I froze, was this some kind of sick joke? I was horrified. How?
Why me?
All I had asked for was a reliable form of contraception.
According to him I was already twelve weeks pregnant!
I could barely walk out his office door what do I do now?
The Mirena was still inside my uterus baby and all, I wondered how this could have been possible as I had a D&C the day they put the Mirena in.
As far as the Doctor could tell everything with the baby appeared normal.
We then had to go back to the hospital that we first went to as this was the main hospital that the Dr who put the Mirena in worked at, we were there for hours! We found out this had never happened in Australia before, there are only 2 cases in the world and both in the USA
We had a big decision to make, do we go ahead with the pregnancy with the odds we were given by the head obstetrician at the hospital? 50% chance of miscarriage before 20 weeks and 75% chance our baby would be born before 30 weeks if we made it that far!
We made the painful decision to terminate the pregnancy.

I was shattered!  I lost part of my soul that day.

I awoke in recovery after the termination to the cruel sounds of everyone congratulating the women next to me on the safe arrival of her daughter just born by cesarean moments earlier.
How could they do this? I was a wreck and just wanted out of there.

I will never get past this it has scared me for life.
The memorial service for our baby "girl" was very beautiful, We both read to her and lit a candle for her short life it was so sad yet I felt it helped with closure. Eventually it was time to say goodbye and we blew out her candle and watched the curtains closed on her small life.
We placed some poetry I had written at the cemetery where our baby’s ashes were scattered.
A pain that will forever be with me, a memory of her tiny face her moving arms her beating heart with me for life.
It shouldn’t have happened. It could have been avoided!

By Emma Elvin